So now, this part of my journey is over. It sure was an experience that I'll take with me for the rest of my life.
Although it didn't feel all good right from the beginning. At first I felt really bad about it, everyday during almost every lesson I only wished for the day to end so I could go home. Holding back my tears during that time wasn't easy as well.
I blamed the school first. It was the teachers and the way they taught that made me feel so bad I thought. But when I later started to speak with people, create friends and make them understand that I'm not just a spoiled little kid, school suddenly started to feel much, much better. I really just felt so nervous and believed that they all looked down on me for being so much younger than everybody else. But I guess they did, before they actually started to get to know me. I did feel like I needed to prove myself, by being better than everyone or something like that. And then I started to blame myself for not being good enough, which really didn't make the whole thing much better. I know it's silly to think like that, but I couldn't really do much about it.
But in the end, all I really needed to do was being myself and just relax. Then everything came naturally. As soon as I found "my place" in the class, the lessons started to become so much more interesting and fun. I've been laughing to tears as well as having really interesting conversations with people from all over the world, while we're all studying japanese together, no matter our different goals in life.
I might sound a little bit over dramatic right now, but it was just such a huge experience for me to do. It is an amazing feeling! People from all over the world, sitting in the same classroom in Tokyo, speaking different languages and grown up with different cultures. It's like the whole world is in one room. We all happened to come together for a longer or shorter time, with the same ambition to improve our japanese. It's just so, amazing. And awesome. Of all the people on the planet, we happened to come to together. I don't know how my classmates feel, but they've become so important to me. I have friends from all over the world now, and when it was time to leave them, I suddenly became so afraid of losing touch with everyone. They sure have been a part of my life now, no matter how much or less I've actually spoken to them. They did leave such an impact on me, and I'll forever bring that with me.
Even if it just was for a couple of weeks, thank you dear class for our short time together, I'll never forget it!
さようなら、また今度　♡

School has finally begun and that's what takes my time right now. Since the first lesson, I've spent every night and day studying and studying. We have a kanji (those big and scary characters for you who don't know) test everyday and a lot of homework, so that's why the update is a little low.

There is a lot of mixed feelings right now. The school isn't really what I've expected, if you can say it like that. The teachers are the kindest persons ever, I really like them, but we NEVER (not even the first day did we know for sure when to come to school) get any information about anything. There is always a lot of pages, papers, tests, tasks and other things to keep track, but they almost never tells us anything. They teach very well, but still. I never fully understand what we're doing. That is one of the most negative things, the other one is that I'm super scared of everything.
I never like to talk in front of a lot of people, and especially not in japanese. We often have to do exercises when everyone's listening, and since that makes me so nervous, I always mess everything up. And that's really annoying since my level is a little bit to low right now, but I don't feel like I can ask them to move me or anything.
I guess I'm so nervous because my class is still strangers for me. I don't really befriend anyone since they are like, old. Or older than me. When I, like everyone the first lesson, introduced myself, my teacher thought I said wrong when I told them my age. Ha. Ha. Everyone is around 20-30 or older, so they seem to see me as a child. But they are really nice, some a bit silly, but no one is mean or anything. I guess as soon as I start to talk a bit more with them, it will feel better. :)

This ended up as a very big entry, but I don't want to leave any details out since I want to remember everything I do here! This is like a dairy for me, and I hope you don't find all this text too annoying. All that is left to say is a funny thing that happened today on my way home. I was walking towards my platform at Ikebukuro station when a man ran up to me and started to talk very fast about if I wanted to be on television, because of my style or something I guess, and much, much more things I didn't understand. Of course I said no, he is a stranger running up to girls on a train station after all? But still, I take it as a wierd compliment haha. ^^

Och vad jag hört så är släkt och vänner trogna läsare här på bloggen, så ville bara flika in med lite svenska och säga tack för att ni läser bloggen och jag hoppas ni har det toppen i Sverige! <3

Good evening! My short trip to Stockholm yesterday was really good. The weather was great, my lesson went well, but since I went there by myself this time, the hours before I'll take the train home was quite boring. But I went to the japanese restaurant Yoi and bought bubble tea, so I survived. Haha. :)

I also bought a new book for my japanese studies, and this time for practicing kanji! It's the same book series as Genki, the book I use the most when I'm studying, and it's called "Kanji - look and learn". I really like it, it's much easier to remember kanji with this, and much funnier as well. I definitely recommend it to everyone who studies japanese. ^^

This is too good to not share here on the blog. I do have a love for Japanese commercials, they are for sure very, unique. And some of them are actually quite genius, and the Japanese are extremely good with both animation and music. But yeah, the commercials are kind of wierd. And then I mean super weird. I don't know how other peoples reactions are towards them, but I think it's a part of the Japanese culture, and I can't help but love it. Japan is Japan after all. One of a kind. :)

What do you think about Japanese Commercials? Fun and creative or just creepy? Be sure to leave a comment or two! ^^

It's not just only the teachers, a lot of my friends at school are interested in my kind of fashion and music. For exampel, it's nowadays quite common to hear Kyary Pamyu Pamyu playing in the dining room, or see people borrowing my japanese books and study katakana. I'm glad if more people can open their eyes for this lovely interest and love for Japan. ^^