Last week in Japan and mixed feelings
4:27 PM
Some pictures from a walk a couple of weeks ago in the area I'm living in.
So this is my last week here in Japan.
There sure is a lot of mixed feelings, but these last days I've really started to feel like there is too much I will miss when I go home. It feels so naturally to be here now. Tokyo have been my home for 2 months, and I really want it to continue to be. I do miss Sweden, my friends, my room, my family and all that, but I've fallen in love with this place. A short visit to Sweden would be just fine, but after that I want to return to Japan. I want to be able to call Tokyo my home for real. Even if I did stay here for 2 months, I was only a guest.
What I do miss the most is a home I guess. My homestay family was definitely the best thing with the whole trip to Japan. I'm so thankful for being able to stay with this family, even though it only was for a short time. I really feel like a member of the family and I don't want to leave them just yet, but I'm still a guest after all. I miss having my own home. That's what I miss most about Sweden right now. But if I was able to call Tokyo home for real, I wouldn't hesitate to stay forever. A small apartment in the middle of nowhere would do just fine. It's still a home.
Everything in Japan is so, different from what I'm used to. Some days I really want everything to be and act like it always does in Sweden. No more cultural differences or anything, just normal. Or what I consider as normal. But especially these last weeks, these differences doesn't feel so strange anymore. I guess being away from home for quite a long time really open up your eyes. I do feel like I see everything from a different perspective now. It's quite an amazing feeling actually, especially after all the people I've come to know and all the things I've seen (I sound like an old wise warlock now I know). This whole thing have been an huge experience for me, and a lot of things feels much more clearer now. Like what I want to do, where I want to live, what my goals is and such. And the fun thing is that dad said exactly that when I first left Sweden. I will be a whole new person when I come home, he said. I thought he exaggerated, but he sure didn't.
I know my updating here on the blog have been quite low, but I've done so much things that I've promised myself to write about here but never done since there is new coming up directly after another! I don't want to spend my days with my computer, and I'm usually so tired during the evenings that my inspiration is less than 0. But I've brought my camera plenty of times to different places I've been to, so please be patient, I promise there will be a lot of things to read about soon enough! This was just a little update about now and my feelings about everything. And if you want to ask me about anything, don't hesitate to send me a comment or an ask on my ask.fm account (http://ask.fm/gingakeii). And sorry for the long entry, I didn't want to leave much details out haha. :)
2 kommentarer
Jag vill så gärna resa till Japan aaahhh ;n; Skriv gärna många inlägg om en massa småsaker från din tid i Japan, sådant du inte fått reda på innan som kan vara bra att veta~
ReplyDeleteJag ska verkligen se till att åka dit på gymnasiet~ Jag har kollat upp skolan jag ska söka tills utbytesprogram, och de har utbyte med staden Nara, som ligger rätt långt ifrån Tokyo ;a; Detta gör inte så mycket though, det är ju Japan som är det viktiga, inte bara Tokyo ^^
Det skulle vara så himla kul om både du och jag faktiskt uppnår våra mål och flyttar till Japan, det skulle kännas rätt betryggande and i alla fall ha en vän som talar ens modersmål i samma land. Du har ju kommit en bra bit på vägen också~ がんばって！
Det kan jag definitivt skriva om, tack för tipset! Ska se vad jag kan hitta på, något speciellt du har i åtanke som du är nyfiken på? :)
DeleteLåter jättebra ju, toppen om du kan ta dig dit den vägen. Japan är verkligen mycket mer än bara Tokyo, och det går ju som sagt att ta sig till huvudstaden utan större problem även om det är lite dyrt, så Nara låter toppen tycker jag! Nara ligger ju dessutom nära Osaka som är toppenmysigt om du frågar mig! Lätt att ta sig till Kyoto också :D
Och tack så jättemycket, jag hejar på dig också! Säg bara till om är fundersam på någonting eller vill ha hjälp. Du har också kommit en bit på väg du också om du har det här programmet som mål, tror du kommer klara det finfint ^o^/